I am no expert on love, or any subject for that matter. In fact, I wouldn’t be offended if you disregarded this all together–hell, I encourage it. With that said, I still feel the need to share this. Share it with you, with them, or just with myself. Sometimes the only way to fully experience my emotions is to take them out and hold them in my hands. Once they are tangible I can fully explore them from a different perspective. Turn them every which way and study the parts where the shade lives. This week I have been meditating on love. What is love? What should it do for you? What does it make you do? Where does it take you? and most curiously to me, do you need it?
Love. Not singularly for a person, or an object, or a memory. But all of it. What is it? Well… to me? It’s Health. With the presence of love, I feel fulfilled. My brain is stronger, my heart softer, my patience longer, and my soul brighter. I believe love cannot exist on its own. You cannot share love if it flows in one direction. It must be nurtured, watered, looked after. Love must be reminded and encouraged. Love requires strength within the struggle, and embrace through its confusion. Love must take turns on who has the control. Love sends out with intention of return– because remember, how will the fire burn without the oxygen? So to me…love comes in pairs, or multiples, but cannot stand alone. Love without nurture fades to dark, seeps its color and turns to anger…hatred…bitterness…saddness.
Love comes in many forms, and we all speak it through our own interpretation. The key of course is to find love within someone/something that loves similarly. For example, Love for a child. You kiss their forehead and they return the affection with a smile and a twinkle in their eye. Their heart is warmed by your efforts–an exchange as old as time. Love for a pet; you home them, feed them, protect them; they return the gestures with licks, gifts, tricks, and obedience. Love for an object such as a figurine you use to brighten your livingroom–an object you love that returns with endorphins creating an ambience that you find solace in. Love for a memory– something that can keep giving for as long as you allow it. And of course, love for a mate. A connection created to reenergize the soul, to find an element of completeness, a partner to live side by side.
After breaking love down and looking inside myself, I feel love is essential. I feel I cannot live without it, and would find it hard to understand anyone who feels they could. Love isn’t a person. Love is whatever you put your energy into that gives back in return. That can be anything. I can recall a show where people who have unusual relationships with inanimate objects are made to look as strange. The show has clear purpose to exploit these individuals–but I feel that isn’t fair. When I watch it, I see people who have learned that love is essential–and they sought out to find it, despite society saying love is shared between living beings, they found it elsewhere. And I feel that speaks volumes about the human race. More than that, It speaks to the topic of how important it is to have love in your life; and the respect that that love demands.
I have taken a hiatus on trying to find love within people–as I have found that when this is pushed, rushed, I only stand to be let down. You cannot force love–it is natural in its birth, anything less will not connect with your energies and will only serve as your downfall. Your spirit is like a battery, if you leave it on the charger for too long it will slowly die. So no, I need not insist on love within a person that my brain has chosen for me, as I am aware that when love aligns with me there are no questions left to be asked. Have I experienced it before? Abso-flippin-lutely! For years, months, and even in short sporadic moments. And these connections, when even short-lived, are far more worthy than any amount of time in a forced co-dependant companionship. I will find love where love already exists for me, whether that be in a photograph, on top of a mountain, or in my child’s eyes.
Where does your love align? Are you in a place where your love comes full circle? Are you reciprocated your embrace? Are your efforts mirrored? Is this important to you?
Happy Friday, everyone.
Song: “Periphescence” by: Glowworm