Friday 10/6/17- Ghost of Christmas Past Came Early
I was staring at a school picture of my daughter today and it brought back a flood of emotions. I stared at her photograph and saw a genuine smile. A beautiful, genuine, Faith smile. And it traveled me to a time when she was not this happy girl. A time when I never slept because I worried for her mental health, emotional health, and future health. I wanted a quick fix so I could have my princess laughing again. I wanted things to be like they use to just so I could know she was fulfilled. It was the hardest part of my life to watch my only daughter emotionally drown and having no ability to offer the desired antidote.
I wish I could erase those emotions and memories, but I know they have and will serve her good on her journey to a brilliant young woman.
And so tonight, I think of the things I can continue to do and the things I can start doing to better serve my daughter's fulfillment. She is the most special lady I have ever known and I want her to believe that every single day she opens her eyes. I want her to believe in herself. I want her to not feel damaged from her trials. I want her to have confidence and enthusiasm about herself and life.
One day at a time.